LIFE IS ALL I HAVE 
ONE OF THE MOST COMPLICATED FEELINGS IN A DAY IS WHEN YOU CAN'T FIND THE WORDS TO SAY AND EVERYTHING JUST BECOMES A BLUR TO YOU . I WAS HAVING SOME COMPLICATIONS WITH THE FACT OF EVERYTHING AND I COOL NOT DEAL WITH IT AND THEN I HAD A GOOD CONVERSATION WITH A FRIEND OF MINE AND SO MANY THINGS HE SAID TO ME JUST MADE REALIZE OF THE PRESENTS WE ARE GIVEN AND SOMETIMES DO NOT SEE . HE TOLD ME THAT SOMETIMES WE JUST HAVE TO LET THINGS GO AND LEAVE THEM AND TAKE THE FOR WHAT THEY ARE BECAUSE SOMETIMES WE WILL JUST END UP KILLING OURSELVES OVER PROBLEMS THAT MOST OF THE TIME CAN BE SOLVED . AFTER THAT I STARTED TO FEEL SOME KIND OF WAY ABOUT THE WHOLE SITUATION AND IT MADE ME THINK SO MUCH ABOUT LIFE IN GENERAL IT WAS UNREAL . HE SAID TO ME SHAUN YOU ARE AN AMAZING KID AND FOR THOSE WHO CAN'T SEE THROUGH THE LOOSE ENDS DON'T KNOW WHAT THEY ARE MISSING OUT ON , HE SAID TO ME YOU ARE SOMETHING THAT THE WORLD IS SO FRIGHTENED AND AMAZED BY AT THE SAME TIME THAT IT TAKES THEM TIME TO UNDERSTAND . I HAVE MY MOMENTS WHERE I GET DEPRESSED AND THEN I REALIZE FROM SOME HELPFUL PEOPLE AROUND ME THAT THEIR IS NOTHING TO BE SAD ABOUT , BUT WHT THEY FAIL TO REALIZE IS THAT SOMETIMES YOU CAN'T JUST HELP IT . I FEEL LIKE I AM ONE OF THE FEW MODELS WHO TRUELY SHARES WITH THE PUBLIC HIS UPS AND DOWNS AND THOUGHTS OF WONDER . IM LIKE FOR THE PAST 2 DAYS I FELT LIKE I NEEDED TO CRY FOR VARIOUS REASONS THAT JUST NOT CAN'T BE DISCUSSED BUT THEY ARE LIGIT . IM LIKE SOMETIMES I LOK BACK AND SEE HOW I GOT TO WHERE I AM NOW AND IT AMAZES ME EVERYTHING I WENT THROUGH BESIDES THE FACT OF WHAT I WOULD CALL " MEMOIRS OF AN ALBINO " BUT JUST LIFE EXPERIENCES THAT I HAVE WENT THROUGH AND I SAY TO MYSELF SOMETIMES I AM SURPRISED I AM STILL HERE THROUGH EVERYTHING IT JUST AMAZES ME BUT THEN I JUST HAVE TO REALIZE AS COCKY AS THIS MAY SOUND . I CAME TO FAR TO GIVE UP AND MY FOR SOME REASON I JUST DON'T THINK IM AM GOING TO GIVE UP BECAUSE MY FRIEND TOLD ME THAT " YOUR GOING THROUGH SO MUCH BAD THINGS BECAUSE IT IS DESTINE FOR YOU SHAUN " AND I SAID MAYBE HE IS RIGHT BECAUSE I JUST FEEL LIKE  AM BEING PUT THROUGH HE TEST TO SEE IF I CAN HANDLE THE GREATNESS . I MAY NEVER KNOW ONLY TIME WILL TELL...............I CRIED ON THE METRO TODAY THINKING OF SOME OF THE MOST POWERFUL WORDS BY " TEVIN CAMPBELLS " TOMORROW , PRODUCED BY QUINCY JONES AND HOW THE WORDS ARE JUST SO AMAZNG AND I CAN JUST REMEMBER BEING ON THE TRAIN AND HAVNG MY BLACK GLASSES ON WHICH EVERYONE THINGS IS " CHRONICLES OF NEVER " AND JUST LOOKING AT MY TEARS OF THE CONFUSING ROLLING DOWN MY FACE AND JUST WATCHING SOME UGLY ASS FRENCH WOMAN LOOK AT ME , SHE WAS SO LUCKY I DID NOT HIT HER WTH MY PORTFOLIO . BUT THEN IT GOT WORST AS I WALKED OUT OF THE METRO AND I COULD NOT STOP I WENT TO THE STORE TO GET SOME APPLE JUICE BECAUSE I LOOOOOOOVE APPLE JUICE AND THEN I WALKED HOME AND NOW I AM WRITING AND JUST WONDERING IN MY ROOM  I FEEL BETTER AND I SEE THINGS MORE CLEAR. PEOPLE FEEL AS IF I ACT THE WAY I ACT JUST BECAUSE I AM BORED BUT YOU HAVE NO IDEA . . . . . . THIS IS THE DIARY OF SHAUN ROSS